motzei Shabbos – The Tree of Life

Soul Maintenance

a motzei Shabbos reflection

Seeking refinement and purification of self should be of the upmost importance, as part and parcel of the experience of being a Yid. I would emphasize that it is written in Pirkei Avos that studying Torah should lead to observance of the mitzvot; otherwise, there will be a disconnect between the intellect and the heart, knowledge and practice, intention and fulfillment.

I struggle to maintain a sense of yiddishkeit day by day, unless I am diligent about the details of my daily practice. Outside of a community that is manifest in proximity to the individual aspirant on the derech, the path is more challenging.

Meeting once a week on Shabbos for in-person services, while attending an online weekday meaning with another shul is not enough to provide the essential grounding that I seek in Judaism. Yet, this is my walk, until another door opens, and HaShem shows me the way.

“A man’s heart deviseth his way; but the L-RD directeth his steps”

– Proverbs 16:9, JPS 1917 Tanach

In parasha Eikev, the Children of Israel are admonished not to stray from the derech and get caught up in the idolatry of the nations that they are about to displace in Eretz Canaan. Maintaining a sense of purity today, especially when one does not live in a more insular yiddishe environment, is challenging.

For myself, after nearly twenty years since I became ba’al teshuvah, it’s as if I am still not settled into the most advantageous niche for my spiritual growth. Yet, I trust that HaShem will lead me along the way to the next endeavor if required for my personal improvement.

motzei Balaak 5784

motzei Shabbos: parasha Balaak 5784 – Be Thou Not Duplicitous

“He that planted the ear, shall he not hear? He that formed the eye, shall he not see?” – Psalm 94:9

“Know what there is above you: an eye that sees, and ear that hears, and all your deeds are written in a book.” – Pirkei Avos 2:1, sefaria.org

When Balam set out on his journey with HaShem’s permission to go, upon the condition that he only speak what HaShem permits him to say, he left in the early morning, after saddling his own donkey. This shows that he was very eager to go, and couldn’t wait for an attendant to saddle the donkey for him. Why was Balam so zealous about his mission, if HaShem clearly stated that only a blessing shall proceed from his mouth, rather than a curse like he was Hired by Balaak, King of Moab?

Even though HaShem gave him the ego ahead, when Balaam set out in the morning, the Torah records that G-d’s wrath flared up. How can this be explained? HaShem sees all that we do, and hears all that we say; He also knows the hearts of all mankind. In Balam’s heart, he still intended to curse Israel; and HaShem knew that he was being disingenuous, exhibiting duplicity, as if he could hide his true intentions from G-d, Who is omniscient (all-knowing). That is why HaShem was angry; and, HE decided to send a malach (angel) as messenger to warn Balam about his intent to be malicious, by somehow attempting to circumvent G-d’s directive.

We would be wise not to follow in the footsteps of Balam. Rather than exhibit duplicity between our heart and our actions, we should seek integrity and honesty. In today’s world, many have taken it upon themselves to self-censure their thoughts, lest they receive adversity from Woke institutions where the work. They choose to be duplicitous, for the sake of protecting themselves from critique, loss of reputation and livelihood. In other words, they need to put forth a public persona for the sake of appearing as if they are in alignment with the Woke values of the establishment, while all along, inwardly harboring the truth for the sake of their integrity.

This dual mentality can erode the conscience and give leeway to the views of Woke ideology by not challenging it. In other words, it permits the system to continue unchallenged, by not speaking openly against it. It has been shown through statistics that most people worldwide do not support the pseudo-morality of Wokism. Yet, the majority remains silent, thus enabling the movement to continue unhindered. Eventually, those who would like to preserve their conscience will be constricted even more by a system that is encroaching evermore upon the individual. HaShem knows our hearts; yet, He would like us to speak the truth that resides within us.

Unintentional Idolatry

Motzei Shabbos: parasha Shelach Lecha 5784 – Unintentional Idolatry

Unintentional sin, within the congregation of B’nei Yisrael required an offering of a goat upon behalf the sinner. Commentary reads that this specifically has to do with idol worship. Today, modern idolatry is less noticeable than overt idol worship; yet, it is prevalent amidst secular society. We must guard against the trappings of materialism, and placing anything before us, as if it is more important than our relationship to HaShem. G-d forbid.

Unless we have clear boundaries, a strong sense of the perimeter around us, figuratively speaking, that will guard us against the inordinate attachment to things that hold no value in the eyes of HaShem, even if they are neutral, then we will diminish our deveykus to HaShem, and undermine the avodah (service) to Him that we strive for.

Amidst all of the lures of a technological society, and secularism writ large, we must find ourselves, secure within our integrity. The opening of the parasha hints at the inner journey we must take into an awareness of ourselves: shelach lecha (go for yourself) can also be rendered as “go to yourself.” Unintentional idolatry must be acknowledged as a detriment to this path.

Moreover, intentional idolatry, according to Torah, is a more serious aveirah (transgression). It is rare in the Western world that anyone, except for those caught up in religious practices that are clearly idolatrous, would forego worship toward G-d, in favor of a so-called deity. It is the difference between worshipping what is the basis for all that exists, and worshipping an illusion.

Yet, we must cast aside our proclivity toward unintentional idolatry, by going deep within ourselves, to make an assessment of where our heart lies in relationship to HaShem. To remove these foreign obstacles from the desire of the heart requires G-d to reveal these inconsistencies within us, so that we may worship Him with sincerity. Shavua tov.

dvar Shemini 5784

This parasha begins with the culmination of the inauguration service for the Kohanim, on the eighth day of the inauguration. The parasha begins with the Hebrew word vayehi, that has a special significance in regard to what is about to occur. According to the Talmud, “Anywhere that the word vayehi is stated, it is an ominous term indicating nothing other than impending grief, as if the word were a contraction of the words vai and hi, meaning woe and mourning” (Megillah 10b, sefaria.org).

What proceeds on Nissan 1st – the eighth day of the inauguration – is the semi-permanent construction of the mishkan, and the beginning of the roles of the kohanim within the framework of the Levitical system of offerings. Yet, it is a bittersweet moment, because if it had not been for the sin of the golden calf, the construction of the mishkan would not have been necessary. As Sforno explains, originally, every Israelite would have been worthy of receiving HaShem’s presence, manifested as the Shechinah, without the need for the Tabernacle.

The parallel to this intention is found in the pasuk, “And let them make Me a sanctuary, that I may dwell among them” (Exodus 25:8, JPS). This verse can also be rendered as “so that I may dwell within them,” meaning each and every Israelite. So that Bnei Yisrael was meant for a closeness with HaShem that would have been bestowed upon them, because of the level that they were at initially at Sinai.

This is still something that we should aspire to today, by making ourselves a mishkan that will receive His Presence, as result of our sanctification through the commandments. This does not exclude the expectation of the rebuilding of the Temple in Jerusalem; rather, His presence within us is complementary to where he will rest his visible presence at that time. Shavua tov.

motzei Shabbos: Yisro 5784

It is the commandments, themselves, engraved on the tablets, that give us a greater freedom, than freedom from the bondage of slavery in Egypt, procured through the demonstration of HaShem’s sovereignty over His Creation, when He intervened within the parameters of nature, in order to bring the plagues upon Egypt.

As long as we are slaves to our yetzer hara, our evil inclination, that attempts to lead us astray from the path of righteousness, we are in bondage to our lesser selves, replete with all of our insecurities, negative character traits, and moral taint. Yet, it is through our obedience to the laws of Torah, the commandments given at Sinai, that can free us from the persistent efforts of the yetzer hara to throw us off track.

The Hebrew word, cherut, meaning “engrave,” used in the Torah passage where the Ten Commandments are engraved on the two stone tablets bears out this teaching. A change in the vowelization of the word cherut, changes the meaning to “free.”

May the words of the Torah continue to bring us the understanding that we need to lead productive lives that will benefit others, as well as our own soul, so that we can walk on the path of righteousness toward more prolific freedom in our lives.

Moreover, in like manner that G-d intervened, in order to free Bnei Yisrael from slavery, may He also intervene in our own lives, to give us the spiritual strength to conquer the negativity in our lives, that keeps us from fulfilling our potential, under G-d’s directive.

shiur: parasha Beshalach 5784

motzei Shabbos shiur: parasha Beshalach 5784 – Sweet Waters

“And Moses led Israel onward from the Red Sea, and they went out into the wilderness of Shur; and they went three days in the wilderness and found no water.” – Exodus 15:22, JPS

For three days after the miracle of the splitting of the sea that led to their deliverance, they were without water. This provided a test of their emunah in G-d, to prove if they trusted that He would provide for them, even though the situation appeared bleak. Yet, upon arriving at Marah, they complained, because the only water source was too bitter for them to drink.

According to Rashi, instead of grumbling, they should have approached Moshe in a respectful manner, saying, “Entreat mercy for us that we may have water to drink” (Rashi on Exodus 15:25, sefaria.org). Regardless, Moshe responded by crying out to H’Shem, Who showed him a tree, to cast into the water, in order to make the bitter waters sweet (Exodus 15:25).

“There He made for them a statute and an ordinance, and there he proved them” (Exodus 15:25, JPS). The test was designed, “to find out if they would be willing to accept statutes, i.e., laws not given to our intelligence to understand, as well as social legislation” (Sforno, sefaria.org). If so, this would determine their receptivity to the commandments that would be given at Sinai.

Thus, to accept that despite all understanding, a tree that is thrown into bitter waters will somehow have the effect of purifying those waters, so that they are no longer bitter, rather, that they become sweet, was a “lithmus test” of sorts, that would indicate their level of acceptance of commandments, some that have no apparent rational basis, and others that could only be understood over time.

We may remind ourselves of this teaching, by taking this to heart, in regard to our own belief and practice, within the context of the yoke of heaven: the acceptance of the commandments as incumbent upon us to observe, in all diligence, ultimately, for our own benefit. Whether we understand the nature of those commandments on a rational basis or not. It is acquiescence to the authority of the Giver of the commandments that is crucial.

“And He said: ‘If thou wilt diligently hearken to the voice of HaShem thy G-d, and wilt do that which is right in His eyes, and wilt give ear to His commandments, and keep all His statutes, I will put none of the diseases upon thee, which I have put upon the Egyptians; for I am the L-RD that healeth thee.’” – Exodus 15:26, JPS 1917 Tanach

motzei Shabbos: Chayei Olam 5784

“If those who never lived, now live, surely those who have lived, will live again!”

– Geviha ben Pesisa; found in R’Nissan Dovid Dubov’s To Live and Live Again

In this commentary, the miraculous nature of the Tehillas HaMeism (Resurrection of the Dead) is compared to the miracle of life itself. Do we ever stop to think about this? Judaism teaches that before a soul is fused with the newborn, that soul is waiting in the treasury of souls, to enter this world, upon being assigned a mission. This journey, and the subsequent placing of the soul in a body – if we consider for a moment this amazing feat – is astounding beyond compare; for, where there was no life, there is now a life brought into the world. How much more so should we be able to wonder at the ability of G-d to restore the soul to the body, after the body has been resurrected? And, yet, in reflecting on this, one may begin to ponder even more, whether life itself or life after death is more miraculous.

motzei Shabbos reflections: Vayeira 5784

“If the Holy One, blessed be He, were to require all my members, I would not delay.” – Targum Yonaton on Genesis 22:1, sefaria.org

According to Targum Yonaton, Ishmael challenged Isaac, concerning the inheritance, claiming that because he was more righteous he should receive the inheritance. “Izhak responded and said, Behold now, today I am thirty and six years old; and if the Holy One, blessed be He, were to require all my members, I would not delay” (ibid; see above). The following test ensued, to see if Isaac was sincere in his words – he was to be brought up as an offering on Mount Moriah.

This rendering is the perspective given from the vantage point of Isaac, who went willingly with his father Abraham. We are not our own; and, our children are gifts from G-d. Abraham’s acknowledgment of G-d’s commandment to give up what was most precious to him, namely his son, Isaac, was a demonstration of this tenet. In a way, he would have only been giving back to G-d what had been given to him. (This may be challenging to understand, unless one reflects upon this).

The Torah states, v’haelokim nisa, that G-d tested Abraham, thus connoting the ordeal that Abraham was being placed under to test his character, commitment, and devotion to H’Shem. Commentary explains that the Hebrew word, נסה (nisa) is rendered by the Midrash as having the connotation of being “elevated,” like a נס (banner). Each of Abraham’s ten trials elevated him in character to a new level, a heightened spiritual stature, until the tenth test, wherein he reached the pinnacle of his personal development in regard to his faith in H’Shem.

Yet, Isaac was willingly about to give up his own life in order to serve H’Shem. And, who amongst Israel would be willing to yield their life to G-d’s decree? Without realizing it, whatever situation that we are put in life, this is where G-d expects us to be. We do not know what may be required of us.

H’Shem’s blessing is upon us, when we serve Him wholeheartedly; regardless of the outcome, we may be assured that it is ultimately for our benefit, as well as others. Despite how we might think, if circumstances appear to be negative, we should think, “into your hand, shall I entrust my spirit.” Our personal salvation is dependent upon nothing more than G-d’s attention to every detail in our lives. He would not give us a challenge that would be more than we are able to face.

Days of Favor

motzei Shabbos: Havdallah 2 Elul 5783

These days are days of favor and repentance. During the month of Elul, through the 10th of Tishrei, H’Shem bestows His favor upon us, so that our teshuvah will be heard and answered.

Thus, in acknowledgment that His Thirteen Attributes of Mercy, given to Moshe when He passed before him (Exodus 34:6), are exceptionally available to us, during these days, we may seek teshuvah with a sincere heart, in earnest expectation that we will be forgiven our sins.

Discernment Avails the Wayward Soul

motzei Shabbos: parasha Shoftim 5783

“Judges and officers shalt thou make thee in all thy gates, which the L-RD thy G-d giveth thee, tribe by tribe; and they shall judge the people with righteous judgment…justice, justice shalt thou follow, that thou mayest live” – Deuteronomy 16:18-20, JPS 1917 Tanach

“Whatsoever thy hand attaineth to do by thy strength, that do; for there is no work, nor device, nor knowledge, nor wisdom, in the grave, whither thou goest.” – Ecclesiastes 9:10, JPS

According to Mei HaShiloach, it is important to emphasize the last phrase of this passage, “… so that you may live.” He explains that the Zohar connects this passage to a verse from Ecclesiastes, that notes how we are only able to do mitzvoth, and acquire knowledge & wisdom in this life” (Ecclesiastes 9:10). Therefore, whatever is done with mishpat, literally, judgment, as well as discernment, awareness and mindfulness will remain with us, “so that we may live.”

That is to say everything done with mishpat will continue to be part of us, and on our record for the good in the Book of Life. Yet, whatever is not done in judgment, dissipates, hinted at by the latter part of the verse, as the Meir Shiloach explains, if done with mishpat, our good deeds will not descend into Sheol. To have a good sense of discernment, means to know what is permitted and what is forbidden to us. In our lives, discernment is more important than our feelings.

We must measure our actions using discernment, in order to determine whether or not to act upon our feelings. In general, Chassidism teaches not to act upon one’s feelings. The mind must rule the heart. The Meir HaShiloach goes on to explain that the gateways of our soul, as inferred from the beginning of the Torah verse, need to be guarded. The inappropriate desires of the heart cannot influence the soul, if exercised in discernment. May H’Shem guard us against the influences that arise from the heart, especially as a result to exposure to the current social milieu.*

*based on Mei HaShiloach; translated and edited by J. Hershy Worth