parasha Ki Tisa 5785

Elevation demands heavenly insight, a focus on the promises of G-d for K’lal Yisrael on both a communal as well as a personal level. Therefore, in consideration of the half shekel, commanded to be given by the Children of Israel, it is relevant to consider the connotation of the word, rosh, “to lift up.” This word may connote the taking of a census. Yet, it may also be applied to the spiritual status of those who contribute the shekel, that serves as representative of them as an individual counted within the overall populace.

It is understood as an elevation of their soul to a higher level, bringing the individual closer to HaShem through the contribution made. When we give of our wealth on earth, we will be storing up treasures in heaven. Our good deeds are the only things that accompany us on the soul’s journey. In the morning prayers, as per a Talmudic passage we learn that while we do receive reward on earth for our mitzvoth, like tsedokah, the principle reward is in heaven.

In order to draw closer to HaShem, we bring an offering from our own possessions, from what is of value to us, like our monetary funds, time, or space that we share with others, as we contribute to the welfare of our communities. We are lifted up closer to G-d, when we give of ourselves to others, in whatever form our capacity permits. In fact, one translation of the Shema, is to love HaShem, with all of our heart, soul, and resources. We may give of our resources that may include more than money, time, and space, as well as offering ourselves, in order to be present with others; i.e. to serve as a witness in the midst of their nisyanos, and offer comfort.

Additionally, our resources could include our talents, that we may also use to serve G-d and others, as our capacities permit. It would be negligent not to use our skills in a way that serves G-d and others, as per the guidelines established through the commandments. So, we may give to others, using the skills, background and vocation we have acquired in life.

Also, consider that the sages teach that the Hebrew word, ahavah, meaning love, implies giving. We are commanded to love our brothers and sisters, and extend that love to others as well, since all mankind has a spark of G-d inside them, we are all created in G-d’s image. Yet, specifically, within the framework of K’lal Yisrael, we are bound together as one people, and responsible for each other. The half shekel is symbolic of this unity, because we may view ourselves as incomplete without each other. Joined together, we become part of the whole.

As a caregiver for my elderly mother, I have been able to harness the skills that I have developed over the years, for the sake of using them in regard to caring for a loved one. This is the essence of Kibud Av v’Em. Moreover, I am also acquiring new skills, learning along the way, as well as increasing my understanding of her needs.

The other day, another resident at the Rehab, where my mother is recovering from a broken hip, needed to call her daughter. She had arrived earlier that morning, and was distraught, because she did not know whether her daughter knew where she was. At first, she attempted to speak to me in Yiddish, until I told her that I was not a Rabbi, and never learned Yiddish, because I grew up as a Conservative Jew, and became ba’al teshuvah, later in life.

So, I let her use my phone, and finally after several tries, she was able to reach her daughter. In giving her my attention, my mother, who was sitting at the same table in the dining room as her, did not have my undivided attention as usual. However, K’lal Yisrael is responsible to each other.

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Omer: Day 31 Kaleidoscopic Splendor

Tiferes shebbe Hod: Beauty within Splendor

(Otherwise rendered as harmony within humility).

As explained elsewhere, only through bowing down in our hearts to the splendor of the L-RD, may we also acquire splendor, by way of reflecting His Splendor. Therefore, we may find through harmonizing ourselves enough to show deference to G-d, we may bear the light bestowed upon us through our reconciliation with Him.

By way of harmonizing ourselves, I mean to bring the soul into alignment with truth, by sifting through the various inconsistencies in character, called from a psychological perspective, “cognitive dissonance.” Ideally, the result would be like viewing the shapes combined into patterns within the kaleidoscope of our soul.

Imagine all of the variegated shapes being lit up by light in the background; this effect would be akin to G-d’s splendor being reflected by our souls.

Omer Count: Day 29 chesed shebbe hod

Kindness may serve as a key ingredient of humility. An act of kindness has the potential to reveal our humility for the sake of others. When we condescend to others in a genuine way, lowering ourselves to their level, we humble ourselves in order to help.

When we humble ourselves before G-d, downplaying our “plusses,” and acknowledging our “minuses,” we place ourselves in a position to better appreciate others, by not seeing ourselves as better than them. Our inherent sameness with others becomes apparent, when we level the playing field and view others as part of the team. It is especially easier to be kind to those whom we feel a common connection with.

Recognizing our own humanity, reflected in the eyes of others, may help us to bridge the gap with personal acts of kindness.

Omer: Day 24 – Balancing Challenges

Tiferes shebbe Netzach: Beauty within Endurance

Tiferes represents the ability to blend or harmonize opposites; thus, the strong-willed efforts to endure challenges in life, may require tenacity; yet, a measure of compassion for ourselves and others also plays a role. Endurance in regard to forbearance of others, is supported by compassion, mercy, and leniency towards others. Also, we would benefit from some show of compassion to ourselves, especially when our best efforts do not immediately amount to success. By acknowledging our mis-tries as stepping-stones, we can learn how to do better next time; this requires a certain amount of self-compassion, lest we judge ourselves too harshly for our failures.

The tenacity to endure the nisyanos (challenges) of our lives, especially when we are running low on reserves, may benefit from acknowledging that we are not superhumans; rather, we are beings built to be dependent on the earth, our fellow human beings, and G-d Himself. When we reach the point of exasperation, when we find ourselves barely able to cope, then we may note a sense of powerlessness. This is exactly when we should turn towards others for help; and, primarily, to accept that the only One who may be able to effect a situation from Above for the good, is the One who created the situation in the first place.

G-d has a divine plan for every individual; when we begin to see the challenges in our lives as tests that will bring us to the next level of spiritual improvement, then we may be in harmony with our circumstances, others, and G-d’s blueprint for our lives.

Omer Count: Day 22- chesed shebbe netzach

chesed shebbe netzach – the endurance of kindness

the continuity of the quality of kindness can only be approached as an ideal. Yet, HaShem, through His attribute of chesed, shows kindness toward us, even when we do not necessarily deserve to be treated with kindness from G-d. Sometimes, He will show His kindnesses to us, in order to win us over through His expression of love toward us. We may also show love in return towards Him through our obedience. To endure in right relationship towards Him, is no easy task; rather, G-d recognizes that we need to keep being drawn back to Him by some reminder, effort, or kindness on His part.

Chesed (kindness) may also be applied in our relationship to self and others. If we are kind to ourselves, we are more likely to treat others in the same manner; as is mentioned in Torah, to love your fellow human being as yourself (Leviticus 19:18). To extend love outwards beyond family and friends may seem like an impossibility; yet, the idea can at least be kept in mind, the next time, a challenging situation might occur. Instead of responding to others, whether family friends, or acquaintances in annoyance when something is less than perfect in our lives, remember that any relationship’s endurance is dependent on kindnesses.

Expressions of kindness are important. Kindness is more than a feeling. A smile, a kind act, or overlooking the other person’s faults: all of these and more will contribute to the endurance of a relationship.

note: The counting of the Omer serves as a spiritual journey. We are called upon to leave our own personal limitations behind us, as we travel on the path of freedom, away from the influence of negativity in our lives. This is a forty-nine day journey, a self improvement plan, between Passover and Shavuot. Each of the seven weeks corresponds to one of the seven middos (character traits) that we will have the opportunity to improve upon in our lives.

My personal reflections on each day’s combination of middot are not meant to be comprehensive; they are not based upon any one particular system. Nor, may my insights be characterized as authoritative, because I am a student, not a teacher. I simply hope to inspire others to delve into an exploration of their own personality, for the sake of tikkun hanefesh (rectification of the soul).

Omer: Day 19 – A Sure Peace

Hod shebbe Tiferes: Humility within Harmony

Humility can serve to temper a false sense of harmony within, by compelling a soul to recognize that any sense of inner peace is often fragile, especially if that peace is not drawn from a higher source. Are we willing to admit to ourselves, that we are dependent on many circumstances, needs, and expectations to maintain a sense of peace? To think otherwise may be an overestimation of one’s own ability to secure sure peace of mind.

Yet, if we would like to be able to transcend our dependence on the requirements that we set for ourselves, in order to bring us a peace that may actually be a fragile peace, then, through recognition of our limitations, we may humble ourselves before G-d, in acknowledgment of the everlasting peace that can be provided only through Him. “The L-RD will bless His people with peace” (Psalm 29:11, JPS 1917 Tanach).

If we choose to follow the ways of HaShem through mitzvot, prayer, study, we will receive the blessings from Above that bring restoration to our lives and a lasting inner peace.

Omer Count: Day 18 – Centering

netzach shebbe tiferes: endurance within harmony

The center will not hold: my sense of balance will be thrown off, if my center is based upon a sense of self. Yet, a transcendent focus will support a sense of balance, by way of transcending ourselves, so that a higher perspective may be gained. A greater sense of fulfillment than our own selfish pursuits must ensue from surrender to a transcendent G-d, a higher cause or a person.

The ego thrives on pride, and a sense of accomplishment attributed to the efforts made by oneself. Yet, because we are limited beings, this kind of image, focused only on self will not endure. True harmony within may only endure through help from Above; otherwise, the weight of our own worries and concerns in this world, may become overwhelming. We may overestimate our sense of self-importance, if we rely on our own emotional, intellectual and moral reserves.

G-d would like us to depend on Him. “Cast your burdens upon the L-RD, and He will sustain you” (Psalm 55:23). For, “His ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts are higher than our thoughts” (Isaiah 55:9). Therefore, G-d may serve as a prolific resource, so that we may endure.

Omer Count: Day 16 – Gevurah shebbe Tiferes

Gevurah shebbe Tiferes: Strength within Harmony

We should judge ourselves in a manner that is not too harsh, nor too lenient; rather, in way that would prove to be of the most benefit to the soul. Thus, a balance is necessary, in regard to how critical a person is of him or herself. A certain amount of positive self-talk will compel a person to feel encouraged: yet, it is also necessary to critique thought, speech, and action, in hopes of being able to improve any faults in these areas.

Harmony within ourselves sometimes requires prioritizing our needs, in favor of higher, more noble aspirations. The discernment of gevurah will assist on the road towards freedom from our lower nature. The heights of spirituality rest upon the decisions that we make for ourselves, that are most in accord with being truly human.

In life, we have the opportunity improve upon ourselves, by way of transcending any negative characteristics. Ultimately, harmony within the framework of mind, body, and spirit will lead towards the ability to excel in accordance with the design given to us by the Creator.

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Omer Count: Day 6 – Foundation of Love

April 12, 2023

Yesod shebbe Chesed (Foundation within Love)

The foundation of love rests upon our ability to bond to others. Therefore, the strength of our love towards others is empowered by how we bond. Conversely, it could be said that the intensity of our love is strengthened by our bonds to others. An everflowing pattern develops, akin, by way of analogy, to the way water circulates on the earth.


“All the rivers run into the sea; yet the sea is not full; unto the place from whence the rivers come, thither they return again” (Ecclesiastes 1:7). Moreover, when water evaporates, the droplets ascend to rakia (sky), from where they are condensed within rainclouds; then, the water droplets fall back to the earth in a continous cycle. I hope that this analogy may benefit your understanding of my reflections on hod shebbe chesed.

[These are my personal reflections on the implications of today’s combination of middot (character traits). These reflections are not meant to be comprehensive, inasmuch that they are not based upon any one particular system. Nor, may these ideas be characterized as authoritative, because I profess to being a student, not a teacher. I hope to inspire others to delve into an exploration of their personality, for the sake of tikkun hanefesh (rectification of the soul)].

Omer Count: Day 5 – Splendor of Love

the splendor of love:
hod shebbe chesed (splendor within love)

The attribute of hod has to do with the character trait of humility. In this respect, when we humble ourselves before G-d, then His splendor may shine through us. Also, hod is likened to the quality of sincerity in our lives. A certain amount of sincerity is required to be humble. For example, when we are sincere about our abilities , without exagerating our talents, nor our accomplishments, this will pave the way towards an honest assessment of ourselves.

From this point of humility within, we may act with sincerity towards others. Furthermore, it is possible to recognize that only when we humble ourselves, can we truly allow H’Shem’s splendor to inspire us to give to others. Therefore, in expressing kindness to others, we are actually reflecting the Image of G-d, whose splendor flows to all who observe His commandments. This is explained in chassidus, as the mitzvah (good deed) drawing down His light through the presence of the Shechinah (Practical Tanya, ch. 41, section 9).

[These are my personal reflections on the implications of today’s combination of middot (character traits). These reflections are not meant to be comprehensive, inasmuch that they are not based upon any one particular system. Nor, may these ideas be characterized as authoritative, because I profess to being a student, not a teacher. I hope to inspire others to delve into an exploration of their personality, for the sake of tikkun hanefesh (rectification of the soul)].