Pesach – The Tree of Life

Renewal of the Soul

A Pesach Reflection on True Freedom:

Our freedom is not guaranteed, unless we cooperate with HaShem. There were many in Egypt, who were left behind, because their hearts were not open to change. Imagine leaving everything you know behind you. All your comforts in this life, and everything that you take for granted would be exchanged for the emptiness of a barren desert. Yet, it is precisely within unfamiliar territory, within the fertile void, where the shadows of the past still linger, while the promise of a new day approaches, here, is where transformation, in desert of our lives, may occur. Every moment is given along with an opportunity of renewal.

For the Children of Israel, G-d orchestrated the perfect opportunity of redemption, brought forth at midnight, when the tenth plague struck the land of Egypt. Not a single house of the Egyptians was left untouched by this plague, while the homes of the Israelites were safeguarded by the sign of the blood on their doorways. This sign represented their faith in HaShem to deliver them from Egyptian slavery.

From the depths of their heart, they cried out to G-d for 216 years, until they received their redemption. If we cry out about our challenges in life today, our nisyanos (sorrows) that burden our soul, we must cry out to HaShem. We can not voice the concerns of a troubled heart into a vacuum of space and time, expecting release. We must direct our troubles to G-d within the framework of exile and redemption, both past and present.

In like manner that blood was smeared on the doorposts of our ancestors’ homes, the doorway of our heart must be purified through teshuvah in order to receive atonement and release from bondage to our sins. If the influence of the yetzer hara upon our soul is to be diminished, then we need to seek G-d’s help in doing so. Deliverance through the right hand of G-d means trusting in His strength to redeem us from all that plagues our lives, darkens our spiritual insight, and burdens our conscience.

Omer Count: Day 29 chesed shebbe hod

Kindness may serve as a key ingredient of humility. An act of kindness has the potential to reveal our humility for the sake of others. When we condescend to others in a genuine way, lowering ourselves to their level, we humble ourselves in order to help.

When we humble ourselves before G-d, downplaying our “plusses,” and acknowledging our “minuses,” we place ourselves in a position to better appreciate others, by not seeing ourselves as better than them. Our inherent sameness with others becomes apparent, when we level the playing field and view others as part of the team. It is especially easier to be kind to those whom we feel a common connection with.

Recognizing our own humanity, reflected in the eyes of others, may help us to bridge the gap with personal acts of kindness.

Pesach Sheini 5784

Pesach Sheini – the Passover of Second Chances

Pesach Sheini, the second Passover, for those who were impure, according to the definition of Torah, or were on a distant journey. Pesach Sheini connotes the idea of second chances. The Israelites who were not able to observe Pesach were given a second chance, one month later, on Nissan 14, in order to do so.

Today, the concept may be applicable to the personal instances of our lives, when we were given a second chance of some nature. Traditionally, matzoh is eaten on Pesach Sheini, although there is no requirement to eat only matzah. Apropos of the theme, let us all consider the second chance to re-evaluate our lives in the face of the challenges ahead.

The redemptive quality of the day may be fostered by praying for our own liberation from any obstacles preventing us from becoming better versions of ourselves. Although, we cannot simply affect an upgrade to a “better version of ourselves,” without harnessing the transformative grace of HaShem. G-d is our Designer, so only in accord with the design of the soul, may we be transformed for the better: this is an inner-change on a spiritual level.

What does this encompass? How can we envision this change? It’s important to acknowledge and work through negative emotions so they don’t linger or affect us negatively. Moreover, because this involves the opportunity for change in the immediate sense, it should be less overwhelming than thinking about changing a negative character trait. It is of benefit to focus on the here and now, by making changes in the moment, beginning with our breath.

In focusing on our breath, and, taking some deep breaths, we can begin to become aware of our feelings. Especially, when we are experiencing negative emotions, we can sort out our feelings, by starting with breath and awareness. The next step is acknowledgment of what we are feeling.

After this acknowledgment, that might include identifying the feeling(s), it is important to accept how we feel, before exploring in depth with ourselves the origin of these feelings. This only requires the attention of our mind in the moment, to notice what thoughts or associations arise from the feelings.

In Judaism, there is a difference between feeling a negative emotion, such as anger, and acting upon it. It is forbidden to act on anger in an inappropriate manner. However, in our day to day lives, we can give pause to the feeling, and prevent ourselves from letting the emotional response cause to say or do something that we would regret.

The essence of a second chance, in a religious sense is teshuvah (repentance). However, this requires more than confession of past sins, shortcomings and failures. It requires a change of heart, wherein we seek to “return to G-d.” Teshuvah is from the shoresh (root word), shuv, meaning “to return.” We do so by avoiding the habitual sins of the past and starting anew.

Pesach – Seventh Day

“And the L-RD said unto Moses: ‘Wherefore criest thou unto Me? Speak unto the children of Israel, that they go forward.’” – Exodus 14:15, JPS 1917 Tanach

The Children of Israel hesitated. Moshe cried out to G-d. HaShem told him to “Speak to the Children of Israel, that they go forward.” Having already prayed for deliverance, the time was at hand; there was no further need for prayer, despite the imminent threat of the Egyptian army, poised opposite the encampment of B’nei Yisrael at the Sea of Reeds.

An east wind from HaShem caused the sea to part, and dried the floor of the sea for the safe passage of the Children Israel. Of this miracle, Melchita notes, as commentary to the Children of Israels words in the song of Moshe, “This is my G-d, and I will exalt Him” (see Exodus 15:2), that even the lowliest handmaid saw in terms of HaShem’s revelation through the forces of nature, what the prophets, later in Jewish history did not see.

The level of kedushah (holiness) that they received through the sublime experience at Sinai, when HaShem revealed Himself to them, brought them to a level. Then, after crossing through the sea, as a cleansed vessel, the Shechinah dwelt within them. The Sea served as a mikveh, whereas tevilah (immersion) was symbolic of a new start, a renewal of mind, body, and spirit; in essence, a rebirth, through purification in a mikveh, and the indwelling of the Shechinah.

The Cloud of Glory that protected the B’nei Yisrael, while encamped at the Sea of Reeds, was the external manifestation of the Shechinah, hidden within “the pillar of cloud that removed before them, and stood behind them,” protecting them from the Egyptians (Exodus 14:19-21, JPS). This is the renewal and protection that we seek today in the face of adversity.

The Pesach Lamb

Shabbat HaGadol 5784

“Speak ye unto all the congregation of Israel, saying: In the tenth day of this month they shall take to them every man a lamb, according to their fathers’ houses, a lamb for a household.” – Exodus 12:3, JPS 1917 Tanach

Shabbos HaGadol, the Sabbath before Passover, commemorates the tenth of Nissan (see above). On the tenth of Nissan, only four days before the culmination of our Redemption from Mitzraim (Egypt), B’nei Yisrael was commanded to take a lamb “without blemish” (12:5), and “keep it unto the fourteenth day of the same month,” when the lamb would be slaughtered at dusk (12:6).

According to commentary, when the Egyptians would ask about this, being especially concerned, because the lamb was a type of deity for them, the Children of Israel would respond that the lamb was to be used as an offering to H’Shem. Needless to say, the Egyptians were none to happy about this – their deity being slaughtered – yet, they were prevented by H’Shem from offering any resistance.

This is the lamb that would be slaughtered, “And they shall take of the blood, and put it on the two side-posts and on the lintel, upon the houses wherein they shall eat it..” (Exodus 12:7, ibid). It was provided as a sign, that the Angel of Death would pass over the homes, where the blood had been placed on the doorposts, and lintel. It is of interest to note, that the word, lintel is derived from the Latin, limitaris, meaning, “constituting a boundary” (Merriam-Webster). Indeed, a boundary was drawn that night, between life and death.

The sages explain that this Passover lamb was tied to the bedposts in the homes of the B’nei Yisrael in Egypt. The lamb was inspected for four days for blemishes. On the afternoon of the fourteenth of Nissan at dusk the lamb was slaughtered; its blood was placed upon the doorposts and lintels as a sign. “The blood shall be to you for a token upon the houses where you are; and when I see the blood, I will pass over you, and there shall no plague be upon you to destroy you, when I smite the land of Egypt” (Leviticus 12:13). The blood of the lamb protected the Jewish homes from the plague of death, and procured our redemption through the demonstration of our emunah (faith) towards H’Shem.

Omer: Day 29 Chesed shebbe Hod

Love (kindness) within Splendor (humility)

The role of kindness within the quality of humility. How does kindness influence the potential for humility? Kindness may serve as a key ingredient of humility. Otherwise, kindness may actually be a result of the quality of humility. To humble ourselves before G-d, and others, downplaying our “plusses,” and acknowledging our “minuses,” places us in a position to better appreciate others, by not seeing ourselves as better than them.

Therefore, kindness may be a consequence of recognizing our inherent sameness with others. It is easier to be kind to those whom we feel a common connection. Recognizing our own humanity, reflected in the eyes of others, may help us to bridge the gap with personal acts of kindness.

note: The counting of the Omer serves as a spiritual journey. We are called upon to leave our own personal limitations behind us, as we travel on the path of freedom, away from the influence of negativity in our lives. This is a forty-nine day journey, a self improvement plan, between Passover and Shavuot. Each of the seven weeks corresponds to one of the seven middos (character traits) that we will have the opportunity to improve upon in our lives.

My personal reflections on each day’s combination of middot are not meant to be comprehensive; they are not based upon any one particular system. Nor, may my insights be characterized as authoritative, because I am a student, not a teacher. I simply hope to inspire others to delve into an exploration of their own personality, for the sake of tikkun hanefesh (rectification of the soul).

Redemption at the Sea

Pesach 7th Day – Redemption at the Sea

“And Moses said unto the people: Fear ye not, stand still, and see the salvation of the L-RD, which He will work for you to-day; for whereas ye have seen the Egyptians to-day, ye shall see them again no more for ever.” – Exodus 14:13, JPS 1917 Tanach

As the Egyptian army approached, Torah records that B’nei Yisrael, encamped near the Sea of Reeds, cried out to H’Shem in great fear (14:10). The people were divided in their response: 1). Some cried out to H’Shem in prayer, akin to the later writing of the psalmist, “Some trust in chariots, and some in horses; but we will make mention of the name of the L-RD our G-d” (Psalm 20:8, JPS).

2). Another group of the people, having great trepidation about their circumstances, took the exact opposite approach, expressing their regret for having left Egypt, and complaining to Moshe (see Exodus 14:10-12).

When Moshe responded to the consternation of B’nei Yisrael, in light of their present circumstances, despite the imminent danger, he said to them, “Fear ye not, stand still and see.” Or HaChayim comments, that the words “stand still” convey the essence of prayer, a reliance on H’Shem, and a turning towards Him in the midst of nisyanos (trials). The picture derived is B’nei Yisrael’s trust in H’Shem, in hope of His salvation at a time of great need.

That night, an angel of H’Shem protected the people from the Egyptians, a cloud darkened the Egyptian camp, while a pillar of light shined upon the B’nei Yisrael. Moshe stretched his hand over the sea; and, H’Shem caused the sea to part by way of a strong east wind. The Children of Israel passed through the sea to safety on the other side. Our own expectations of H’Shem for deliverance in our lives, regardless of our circumstances, when made through the prayer of sincerity, may bring results greater than our expectations.

Omer Count: Day One – Introduction and Synopsis

Road to Spiritual Improvement

overview, weekly synopsis, day one

The Omer Count – counting of the Omer – may serve as a spiritual journey from Egypt to Sinai. We are called upon to leave our own personal mitzraim (Egypt; from metzeir, meaning “limitations”) behind us, as we travel on the path of freedom, away from the influence of the yetzer hara (evil inclination). This is a forty-nine day journey, aka self improvement plan, that begins on the eve of the second day of Passover. Each of the seven weeks corresponds to one of the seven middos (character traits) that we will have the opportunity to improve upon in our lives. And, each day of the week focuses on one aspect of that quality.

The first week is devoted to the middah of Chesed: primarily love, expressed as kindness, mercy, and compassion. The expansiveness of chesed is opposite the constrictive quality of gevurah. Chesed has to do with an openness of personality, as well as a friendly attitude towards others. From a psychological perspective, chesed would be akin to a high rating on the the Big Five personality traits to agreeableness. When we give from the heart to others, we are giving with chesed.

Day 1 – chesed within chesed

The amount of kindness that we show to others, despite other traits that might be less conducive to friendliness, is dependent on how we view and treat ourselves. Genuine kindness is from a place of empathic consideration for the other. The mercy that we show to others, in times of weakness, when we might otherwise respond in a harsh manner, is a way of transcending the egotistical drives that fashion us as human beings, instincts that are mostly focused on ourselves. Yet, being truly human means to go beyond our comfort zone, by not giving in to our lesser inclinations and selfishness.

note: These are my personal reflections on the implications of today’s combination of middot (character traits). These reflections are not meant to be comprehensive, inasmuch that they are not based upon any one particular system. Nor, may these ideas be characterized as authoritative, because I profess to being a student, not a teacher. I hope to inspire others to delve into their own exploration of personality characteristics, for the sake of tikkun hanefesh (rectification of the soul).

erev Pesach 5783

While in bondage in Mitzraim (Egypt), the B’nei Yisrael had sunk to the 49th level of impurity, having neglected to distance themselves from the surrounding environment of idolatry (Pesachim 116a). The Midrash records that when about to cross through the Sea of Reeds, the angels questioned their merit, saying both these and those, i.e., the Children of Israel and the Egyptians, were both idol worshippers. Why should these be spared, and the others not? Yet, H’Shem honored the covenant that he made with Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, in order to bring His newly acquired nation out of bondage, and into covenant relationship with Him through the Torah.

H’Shem brought us out of Egypt to Mount Sinai, where He gave us the Torah. He had said to Moses, “This shall be the token unto thee, that I have sent thee: when thou hast brought forth the people out of Egypt, ye shall serve G-d upon this mountain” (Exodus 3:12, JPS 1917 Tanach). The revelation of Mount Sinai was the pinnacle of the redemption. “The tablets were the work of G-d, and the writing was the writing of G-d, graven upon the tablets” (Exodus 32:16, JPS). The Hebrew word for engrave is charut. The Sages note that the word cherut, meaning “freedom” is from the same shoresh (root word). This implies that our true freedom is derived through Torah.

B’nei Yisrael, in a manner of speaking, was also enslaved to sin in Egypt, having assimilated to the immorality of Egypt at that time. Although freed from actual physical bondage, they were still slaves to sin; yet, through the Torah, we may seek freedom from bondage to the yetzer harah (the evil inclination). We may break through the limitations of our own personal Mitzraim (Egypt; from “nitzavim,” limitations), and, figuratively speaking, pass through the Yam Suf (Dividing of the Sea), into the freedom that entails a responsibility to follow our yetzer tov (good inclination).

The Pesach Lamb

Shabbat HaGadol 5783