spirituality – The Tree of Life

Soul Maintenance

a motzei Shabbos reflection

Seeking refinement and purification of self should be of the upmost importance, as part and parcel of the experience of being a Yid. I would emphasize that it is written in Pirkei Avos that studying Torah should lead to observance of the mitzvot; otherwise, there will be a disconnect between the intellect and the heart, knowledge and practice, intention and fulfillment.

I struggle to maintain a sense of yiddishkeit day by day, unless I am diligent about the details of my daily practice. Outside of a community that is manifest in proximity to the individual aspirant on the derech, the path is more challenging.

Meeting once a week on Shabbos for in-person services, while attending an online weekday meaning with another shul is not enough to provide the essential grounding that I seek in Judaism. Yet, this is my walk, until another door opens, and HaShem shows me the way.

“A man’s heart deviseth his way; but the L-RD directeth his steps”

– Proverbs 16:9, JPS 1917 Tanach

In parasha Eikev, the Children of Israel are admonished not to stray from the derech and get caught up in the idolatry of the nations that they are about to displace in Eretz Canaan. Maintaining a sense of purity today, especially when one does not live in a more insular yiddishe environment, is challenging.

For myself, after nearly twenty years since I became ba’al teshuvah, it’s as if I am still not settled into the most advantageous niche for my spiritual growth. Yet, I trust that HaShem will lead me along the way to the next endeavor if required for my personal improvement.

Seeking Solace Amidst the Chaos

There is a spirit of unrest upon the world. I am speaking figuratively; yet, I am reminded of the opening of the Book of Genesis. The Ruach HaElokim (the spirit of G-d) hovered over the water. The earth itself was tovu vavohu – formless and void – and there was “darkness upon the face of the deep; and the spirit of G-d hovered over the face of the waters” (Genesis 1:2, JPS). The opening passage of the six days of Creation has to do with the unfolding of chaos into order over successive stages in the earth’s history.

It seems that rather than progressing from chaos into order according to G-d’s directive, his creation has again descended into chaos. This restlessness that compels dissent, protest, and division is in direct contrast to G-d’s presence hovering over the waters at the beginning of creation. Yet, there must be a compelling reason to believe that G-d’s presence, although not discernible at times, is still with His creation. And, He is the only One of whom we may turn toward to still the restlessness in our hearts.

For, if we tune into His presence within the silence of the nighttime, or in the early hours of the morning, the daily grind, and excessive focus on world events melts away into the air. It is at this quiet time, from evening to dawn, that solitude may be sought in the stillness. Within that peace, that is almost tangible, begins renewal, and the realization off what is essential in life.

A certain kind of detachment from the uproars in society, as portrayed in the news, and people’s constant attention on these distractions, is necessary in order to remove ourselves from the turmoil, so that our emotions are not compelled to react in a negative way. Without the solace provided by seeking out the peace from Above, I can’t imagine how else to bear with the incessant continuation of noise, whether it’s political, cultural, or societal. Religion has always provided a sanctuary for the heart and troubled mind, and faith the constant security of the soul.

The Mindful Moment

What prevents you from experiencing each moment of your life more fully? Consider that every moment has the potential to reveal a rich connection to ourselves, beyond what we perform by default in a rote manner. By rote, I mean any activity performed unthinkingly, on automatic, without giving deliberate attention to that activity. For instance, I noticed that I often rush through a beracha over food, skipping the first part, wherein HaShem is acknowledged, and going right to the individual ending such as borei pri haEtz or borei pri haAdamah. Why? It is because of what I refer to as “background anxiety.” This is the kind of anxiety that remains, for the most part, unnoticed. Otherwise, it is part and parcel of being caught up in the momentum of a hectic pace.

What is necessary, from a psychological standpoint is to shift from the automatic mind to the conscious mind. These two modes of thinking depict the difference between running on automatic, in reaction mode to responding to the moments we encounter in life, without letting our emotions rule. This is important, to have an awareness of what state of mind we are in, and once we become aware of moving unthinkingly through a task or moment in time, to interrupt the reactive brain and shift into a more conscious and mindful state of mind. This can be done as simply as pausing, taking a deep breath, and slowing down, to focus more in the moment.

Mesillas Yesharim (Path of the Just) teaches that awareness is a necessary component of spiritual growth. Everything starts with awareness and conscious choice. We do not want to live mindless lives. Yet, the more aware I become of my ways, the more I realize that I often do not move through life in a deliberate, conscious way. Rather, I speak without thinking, repeat talking points without evaluating them, and react emotionally, without restraint. Changing habitual patterns of behavior is challenging; yet, it is possible, with continual effort. So, stop, pause, and reflect enough to focus on your inner state, while tuning out any distractions. Incorporate this practice into your life for the best results.

Awe & Reverence

Approaching life in a reverential manner requires a distance between the self and the sacred. It is also helpful to foster an inwardly silent mind; yet, in order to do so, great effort must be made to quiet the mind. Rather, we need to separate the essential jewels from the nonessential clutter of our minds. Only then, can we arrive at a place of stillness in the mind, wherein we can acknowledge the uniqueness of others and creation from an experiential standpoint of awe and reverence.

In solitude, or around others, an inner calmness may reside, within the sense of self, fostered, when connecting to the essential dimension of being human, that unique aloneness of our existence. This is not the normal state of mind that we are familiar with, unless we are able to become comfortable spending time alone, connecting to the stillness of our existence.

As human beings, our sense of “existential isolation” is minimized by our incessant activity in life, and preoccupations of the mind. We do not often leave ourselves much time to reflect upon ourselves, or the meaning of our lives, beyond our vocations. We busy ourselves with other things, than the inner dimension of the soul.

We are unique individuals on earth with a purpose for being here, above and beyond our everyday concerns. Moreover, our connection to G-d and the world around us is limited by our preoccupations with self. We enclose ourselves in our own personal spheres, surrounded by a bubble of protection from the other, the unknown, and anything that is outside our comfort zone.

Yet, the expansiveness felt by becoming absorbed in the beauty of a sunset, or the sky with its deep endless blue, is the type of awe that is available to us in regard to all of creation. We only need look beyond ourselves, while keeping our hearts pure. “Above all that thou guardest keep thy heart; for out of it are the issues of life” (Proverbs 4:23, JPS 1917 Tanach).

Spiritual Sustenance

Five Thing Essay: Spiritual Sustenance

Every moment of this life is precious and holds great potential. We should value our time, and not carelessly squander our time on meaningless distractions from our goals in life. Rather an emphasis on spiritual development should guide our lives. Yet, for the mind to do so, calmness needs to prevail over our busy lives, hectic schedules, and general concerns.

Reflection on spiritual things may be fostered in us, through music that uplifts the soul. Moreover, this can enhance hisbodedus (meditative prayer), wherein we speak to G-d with words that may arise from within us. Prayer from the heart is one way of reaching out to G-d from the depths of the soul.

In our lives, the more we focus on G-d, the less anxiety we will have about our worldly concerns. Moreover, our growing concerns about the future, as well as the current state of affairs on earth, may weigh us down, if we do not bring a proper perspective into alignment with our thinking.

G-d has decreed that the world will not be completely destroyed, like at the time of the Mabul (Great Flood). Rather, we should look forward to the messianic era, when Torah will flourish upon the earth, amongst all peoples. And, “the word of the L-RD shall go out from Zion.”

Perhaps, this is one of the prime differences between the expectations of the Jewish people, and the incessant drive of radical Islam to impose Shariah law upon the world. We are waiting for Moshiach, in hopes of bringing peace to the world. No one is forced to accept the G-d of Israel, Who is a G-d of Mercy as well as Justice. So, let us not misuse our time until that day, when Moshiach will reign from Jerusalem; instead, let us focus on the cry, “Ad mosai” (how long will we wait)? And, prepare ourselves for that day, in great expectation.

New Age Revelry

The Ubiquity of Spirituality without Religion

The sovereignty of the individual is ultimately supported by the Higher Authority of G-d. We are guided by lasting principles that enable us to direct our autonomy toward a worthy goal. We work in tandem with His guidance, recognizing that ultimately, He should be L-rd over our lives.

Yet, today, in the chaotic postmodern world, where spirituality abounds, devoid of a connection to a transcendent G-d, man raises himself up as the highest authority. Indeed, many, who are steeped in New Age spirituality view themselves, and all humankind as part and parcel with the divinity of G-d, irrespective of His transcendent nature. In other words, they view themselves as divine, without recognizing a higher authority.

As shocking as this may sound to anyone who holds a traditional religious worldview, it should be noted that the separation of spirituality from religion is gaining ground in the world. As people move away from traditional concepts of G-d and religion, the yearning for something other than the mundane compels many to fill the void in their lives with anything under the sun, except the idea of a G-d who has moral expectations of us.

The main tenets of monotheistic faith, in particular, are replaced by alternatives that have less of a demand for responsibility to a moral order, and more of a subjective, experience-based spirituality without a particular moral code. Thus, any conception of an absolute authority that can guide our lives is substituted with the individual being the highest form of authority.

Where will this rift between religion and spirituality lead? There seems to be a growing consensus that religion is too binding upon the freedom of an individual; hence, the embracing of a myriad diversions from the revealed truth at Sinai, encompassing subjective experiential pursuits. Worse than worshiping other gods, many within the New Age Movement are worshipping themselves.