
Religious Existentialism: existential crisis of a religious nature
If community participation eclipses one’s personal sense of belief and practice, disallowing for creative growth, as if one is simply expected to absorb the specific emphasis of teachings, and the overall philosophy of a particular style of Judaism without questioning, reflection, or discussion, how can one thrive, except as a wilted flower? The burden of such a contrast in approach prevents the goods of the Jewish faith from reaching the individual’s uniqueness.
If one’s understanding is nuanced, different than the perspective, approach, and emphasis, then, an apparent disconnect may occur. Consider, that the spirit of Judaism includes the concept of the seventy facets of Torah, that should foster appreciation and respect for individual perspectives. Moreover, inquiry into Torah is validated by Torah itself, wherein the middle of the Five Books of Moses, the same word is repeated twice: darosh, darosh – inquire, inquire.
If an individual becomes overwhelmed by the collective set of understanding, pervasive stance, and repetitive style of rhetoric, this may result in diminishing the sense of awe and wonder that Judaism should inspire. Moreover, I do not want to be provided with the answers; I would like to focus on the questions. Therefore, I need to retreat in order to gain room to breathe.
My experience has reminded me of Heschel’s insight, regarding the importance “to rediscover the questions to which religion is an answer.” He explains that “the inquiry must proceed both by delving into the consciousness of man as well as by delving into the teachings and attitudes of the religious tradition” (G-d in Search in Man, ch.1). I yearn to begin this exploration.


