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Omer: Day 19 – A Sure Peace

Hod shebbe Tiferes: Humility within Harmony

Humility can serve to temper a false sense of harmony within, by compelling a soul to recognize that any sense of inner peace is often fragile, especially if that peace is not drawn from a higher source. Are we willing to admit to ourselves, that we are dependent on many circumstances, needs, and expectations to maintain a sense of peace? To think otherwise may be an overestimation of one’s own ability to secure sure peace of mind.

Yet, if we would like to be able to transcend our dependence on the requirements that we set for ourselves, in order to bring us a peace that may actually be a fragile peace, then, through recognition of our limitations, we may humble ourselves before G-d, in acknowledgment of the everlasting peace that can be provided only through Him. “The L-RD will bless His people with peace” (Psalm 29:11, JPS 1917 Tanach).

If we choose to follow the ways of HaShem through mitzvot, prayer, study, we will receive the blessings from Above that bring restoration to our lives and a lasting inner peace.

Omer Count: Day 18 – Centering

netzach shebbe tiferes: endurance within harmony

The center will not hold: my sense of balance will be thrown off, if my center is based upon a sense of self. Yet, a transcendent focus will support a sense of balance, by way of transcending ourselves, so that a higher perspective may be gained. A greater sense of fulfillment than our own selfish pursuits must ensue from surrender to a transcendent G-d, a higher cause or a person.

The ego thrives on pride, and a sense of accomplishment attributed to the efforts made by oneself. Yet, because we are limited beings, this kind of image, focused only on self will not endure. True harmony within may only endure through help from Above; otherwise, the weight of our own worries and concerns in this world, may become overwhelming. We may overestimate our sense of self-importance, if we rely on our own emotional, intellectual and moral reserves.

G-d would like us to depend on Him. “Cast your burdens upon the L-RD, and He will sustain you” (Psalm 55:23). For, “His ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts are higher than our thoughts” (Isaiah 55:9). Therefore, G-d may serve as a prolific resource, so that we may endure.

Omer Count: Day 16 – Gevurah shebbe Tiferes

Gevurah shebbe Tiferes: Strength within Harmony

We should judge ourselves in a manner that is not too harsh, nor too lenient; rather, in way that would prove to be of the most benefit to the soul. Thus, a balance is necessary, in regard to how critical a person is of him or herself. A certain amount of positive self-talk will compel a person to feel encouraged: yet, it is also necessary to critique thought, speech, and action, in hopes of being able to improve any faults in these areas.

Harmony within ourselves sometimes requires prioritizing our needs, in favor of higher, more noble aspirations. The discernment of gevurah will assist on the road towards freedom from our lower nature. The heights of spirituality rest upon the decisions that we make for ourselves, that are most in accord with being truly human.

In life, we have the opportunity improve upon ourselves, by way of transcending any negative characteristics. Ultimately, harmony within the framework of mind, body, and spirit will lead towards the ability to excel in accordance with the design given to us by the Creator.

Omer Count: Day 14 – malchut shebbe Gevurah

sovereignty within strength

Wielding power from a position of authority requires discernment. The autonomy of the sovereign must reflect his own deference to G-d, for no one is above the law. Moreover, the sovereign must respect the autonomy of his subjects; and not rule in a manner that diminishes their individuality and rights.

Every human being is granted a certain amount of autonomy from Above. If G-d gives us free will, then we must also recognize the autonomy of our fellow human beings. Moreover, regardless of the worlds demands upon the souls of individuals to conform, the individual of integrity must seek inner liberty from the tyranny of the narrative norm.

Excercise your right to stand up for your beliefs.

Omer Count: Day 12

hod shebbe gevurah (humility within strength)

The humility of discipline, requires an acknowledgment of something greater than ourselves, so that we do not misuse our sense of power. There is only one authority in the world that is not of this world: the authority from Above. All other authorities must submit to Him.

The more that we may try to act as an independent entity, without keeping G-d in mind, the less efficacy we will have in our own endeavors. Even if G-d permits us to go our own way, the result will not be sanctioned by him, unless we realize through our misguided efforts, that something is amiss. By leaving G-d out of the equation in our lives, nothing will add up.

Only through His splendor can we act in all humility, in recognition of His greater glory.

Pesach – Seventh Day

“And the L-RD said unto Moses: ‘Wherefore criest thou unto Me? Speak unto the children of Israel, that they go forward.’” – Exodus 14:15, JPS 1917 Tanach

The Children of Israel hesitated. Moshe cried out to G-d. HaShem told him to “Speak to the Children of Israel, that they go forward.” Having already prayed for deliverance, the time was at hand; there was no further need for prayer, despite the imminent threat of the Egyptian army, poised opposite the encampment of B’nei Yisrael at the Sea of Reeds.

An east wind from HaShem caused the sea to part, and dried the floor of the sea for the safe passage of the Children Israel. Of this miracle, Melchita notes, as commentary to the Children of Israels words in the song of Moshe, “This is my G-d, and I will exalt Him” (see Exodus 15:2), that even the lowliest handmaid saw in terms of HaShem’s revelation through the forces of nature, what the prophets, later in Jewish history did not see.

The level of kedushah (holiness) that they received through the sublime experience at Sinai, when HaShem revealed Himself to them, brought them to a level. Then, after crossing through the sea, as a cleansed vessel, the Shechinah dwelt within them. The Sea served as a mikveh, whereas tevilah (immersion) was symbolic of a new start, a renewal of mind, body, and spirit; in essence, a rebirth, through purification in a mikveh, and the indwelling of the Shechinah.

The Cloud of Glory that protected the B’nei Yisrael, while encamped at the Sea of Reeds, was the external manifestation of the Shechinah, hidden within “the pillar of cloud that removed before them, and stood behind them,” protecting them from the Egyptians (Exodus 14:19-21, JPS). This is the renewal and protection that we seek today in the face of adversity.

Awe & Reverence

Approaching life in a reverential manner requires a distance between the self and the sacred. It is also helpful to foster an inwardly silent mind; yet, in order to do so, great effort must be made to quiet the mind. Rather, we need to separate the essential jewels from the nonessential clutter of our minds. Only then, can we arrive at a place of stillness in the mind, wherein we can acknowledge the uniqueness of others and creation from an experiential standpoint of awe and reverence.

In solitude, or around others, an inner calmness may reside, within the sense of self, fostered, when connecting to the essential dimension of being human, that unique aloneness of our existence. This is not the normal state of mind that we are familiar with, unless we are able to become comfortable spending time alone, connecting to the stillness of our existence.

As human beings, our sense of “existential isolation” is minimized by our incessant activity in life, and preoccupations of the mind. We do not often leave ourselves much time to reflect upon ourselves, or the meaning of our lives, beyond our vocations. We busy ourselves with other things, than the inner dimension of the soul.

We are unique individuals on earth with a purpose for being here, above and beyond our everyday concerns. Moreover, our connection to G-d and the world around us is limited by our preoccupations with self. We enclose ourselves in our own personal spheres, surrounded by a bubble of protection from the other, the unknown, and anything that is outside our comfort zone.

Yet, the expansiveness felt by becoming absorbed in the beauty of a sunset, or the sky with its deep endless blue, is the type of awe that is available to us in regard to all of creation. We only need look beyond ourselves, while keeping our hearts pure. “Above all that thou guardest keep thy heart; for out of it are the issues of life” (Proverbs 4:23, JPS 1917 Tanach).

Pray for the Captives

Thus saith the L-RD: even the captives of the mighty shall be taken away, and the prey of the terrible shall be delivered; and I will contend with him that contendeth with thee, and I will save thy children.”

– Isaiah 9:25, JPS 1917 Tanach

Tikkun HaNefesh: Day 2

Taming the Soul: Teshuvah & Binah

Upper teshuvah, in particular, according to the TANYA is associated with Binah; thus, it can be inferred that the cognitive powers of the attribute of Binah (Understanding) in the soul, may be used to foster teshuvah through discernment of the condition of one’s soul. May our souls reach the potential benefit designated, through a thorough reflection upon our faults, character defects, and aveiros, in order to gain more insight into our lives, for the sake of tikkun haNefesh (renewal of the soul).

To determine the state of the soul is a necessary task, especially beginning 30 days prior to Rosh HaShannah. If the soul is in disarray, its waywardness going unnoticed, now is the time to begin to make amends. Taming the soul is an endeavor that ranks in importance, higher than organizing our closets, cabinets, or files on a PC. If we take good care of our place of residence, how much more so should we invest in the purification of the soul? Namely, our souls are sanctified through observance of the mitzvoth (commandments). Yet, our character development may get neglected, like a car in need of a tune-up.

The solution is to be mindful enough throughout the day of our composure, adjusting our awareness to any neglected feelings or thoughts that are not in alignment with the ideal state of our soul. Thus, we can be reconciled to G-d, by taming our souls, day by day. We should also set aside a certain period of time, even if for only five minutes, to examine the conscience.

Gradually, we may recover our essential selves, by way of a continual teshuvah, rediscovering aspects within the framework of our character that need attention, for the sake of renewal. The month of Elul provides a thirty-day period to refine the soul in a manner befitting each of us.

Elul Preparation 5783

“Whither shall I go from Thy spirit? or whither shall I flee from Thy presence? If I ascend up into heaven, Thou art there; if I make my bed in the nether-world, behold, Thou art there.”

– Psalm 139:7-8, JPS 1917 Tanach

During the month of Elul, we are called to look past the surface level of ourselves; this is no easy task for anyone caught up in images, that is to say, the presentation of oneself as an image that does not correspond to who one really is. Yet, we should be careful not to continue fooling ourselves, if we have not already recognized the false images of ourselves that we might unconsciously present to others. Instead of upgrading our image, we need to look closely at its flaws.

This is the only way to gain an honest assessment of oneself. For, we are compelled by the quality of this month to judge ourselves, in order to diminish being judged disfavourably on Rosh HaShannah. We have a full month’s preparation to examine our own conscience, for the sake of improving ourselves, by first “cleaning house.” We must empty ourselves of all the clutter that has accumulated over time, creating obstacles between us and our ideal potential.

Where can we start? In every moment, we have a starting point. That is to say, that we may start in the present moment. If recollected enough, insight can be gained into our true nature, both the good and the bad, the strengths and the weaknesses, the virtues and the flaws. As is written, H’Shem will be with us when we are focused on the positive; and, He will also be present in our endeavor to explore our negative character traits.